Wednesday, March 2, 2005

My wish

Why are things around me so sordid.....It just makes me feel all the more worse. Was it not just yesterday that I leaped in joy and pride when I heard my friend is now a proud mother of a baby girl. How good it felt!! I called her up again today asking her for a treat and she sounds low. It didn't at all occur to me that something may be wrong with the baby. But sadly it was. The baby was suffering from blue baby syndrome...and the doctors have now operated on her...I visited her and saw the poor thing all covered with wires and machines. Life supporting machines and that too for a kid not even a month old.....will she survive? That's where my thoughts wander.....will she live to see this world.......but she should!! she has a right to live!! Now how do I face my friend.... a friend who is almost family now.......When I try and think back of one time we were not friends..I can't........we have been friends for so long now.....and I always thought I have been there to share her pain and sorrow and laugh along with her in her happiness.........How do I share her woes now. How do I help her get away with the agony that I see in her eyes........I can't!! I have not carved the baby in my womb.....she has...........and so no one can feel the way a mother would to see her child fighting for breath...........each breath...... which is artificial..........heart not functioning.....lungs not functioning the way it should!! Gosh!! it's difficult to even think of yourself in such a situation and now you have a new born striving to live.......I dont know what to say or do........and so I remain quiet for sometime and then I try and say a few words of wisdom.......I dont want to console her.....how can I even think of consoling her.....she does not need my condolences........she wants her baby to live...can I do that for her....Never!! so all I thought best to do is quietly pray for the well being of the baby.......If God really can let her live.....if miracles really happen.......God please grant me my wish!!