Forever Gone

As I sit by the window
Looking at the sea down below
Wondering about how my life is going to be

Thoughts wandering
Images floating
Thinking of the times when we were together
Of all the laughter and the fun
The sharing and the caring
The special ways to make me feel
You are there and will always be

I am brought back to reality
Like a turmoil in the sea
How you are now gone forever...
and will come back to me-- never o never!

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A heart to heart conversation with an old friend last night made me wonder.... what is it about moving out from a relationship .....I have read several stories of heart break .....but I often wonder is it only moving away from one another in that certain kind of realtionship that breaks our heart or makes it hard for us to live...in my opinion moving out of any relationship is equally diffcult and changes everything for us...it is like we stop living as we did for a while .......sometimes it feels like a bad dream and we are not able to accept it..at times it is just that we were not really ready to see this part of our life ......... although we knew it is coming.......can there be only one kind of relationship between man and woman....does any relationship having to do with the opposite sex mean only one thing and can never be accepted.......just because we do not have any logical conclusion to it?

I wonder who made such rules and why do we follow those...to me whoever the person is it is completely okay to feel close to him or her if you feel comfortable in their company......it is not important who he or she is or what relation you have with them....all that should really matter is that you have the same kind of dreams to be on the same level with him or her

Chahat!

An Attempt at hindi Poetry!!
Everyone is free to call it whatever ....... :-)

Bas yun hi tumhein dekha karoon
Jindagi gujar jaaye tumhari baahon mein
Yun hi hum tum raha karein
dhoop mein aur chaanv mein
Fiza badle kitne bhi magar
Hum na badlein in hawaon mein
Khush hoon main isi ehsaas se
ki ab tum ho mere apnon mein....

Possessions!

When I opened my wardrobe yesterday, all I intended to do was move some of my summer clothes as the weather is getting colder each day and I really wanted to have enough space in the wardrobe to fit in my winter clothes but what I found myself doing was not arranging clothes but something entirely different.......here I was on a trip down memory lane, each of the dresses brought back memories of how I had bought it or where, of how much I wanted a certain kind of dress and what all I had done to get one of the type I wanted......All the palces and times i had worn those to.... Each of them somehow reminded me how it had come to me....who had gifted it to me...when it was given....
It's strange how even the tiniest of your possessions have a way of making you feel special and loved. Parting with my clothes made me feel very nostalgic and I was filled with all kinds of mixed emotions........

Woven dreams!

To be with you is joy ever new
and wonder if it could be true....
To look into ur eyes and
weave dreams of future.....

I dream of faraway places
with just the two of us
Where there is....
No place to run to
No schedules to follow
No calls to answer
No promises to keep
And no commitments to meet

I wish I could live in my own fantasy land
Where nothing gets wiped like times in sand
Where the concrete lives and the strength prevail
Where integrity rules and evil is frail.....

Another attempt!

Is marubhoomi mein ped ki wo chaanv ho tum,
Jise dekh raahi ko chaah hai chalne ki....
Aur main...
usi chaanv mein baithker
chura leti hoon jeevan ko
Phir jee leti hoon pal do pal

Computers n life!

The other day I got up with a strange thought right in the morning...while driving down to work the same thought kept me occupied. I awoke with this feeling that with the amount of computers we do nowadays, are we going to forget how to write with pen on paper. I wondered if kids someday will learn to read and write not with books and paper and pencils but with computers..at the rate the technology is progressing ....will that day be far when there will be user friendly keyboards for children who have just started reading and writing.... when even the kids text books would be replaced by e-books....it already has........ but what with 3-5 year olds...who are learning to read and write....are they going to do it just with the computers and not their hands. Are the next generation kids going to have nothing to do with handwriting...this reminded me of the writing competitions that we used to have during school days and the way we would practice to win that one prize.....those were days when computers hadn't really caught up the way it has now......now when I am asked to write on paper it is hard for me...my handwriting has gone for a toss....I have been so out of practice writing...this when I had a beautiful handwriting which I boast about even now....and an honest confession...I dread writing these days....other than scribbling.. I doubt we do much nowadays.......I can't do much with my hands on paper and then another srange thought gripped me....where are we heading ...progress?? when we depend on machines, it's all so mechanic...you dont really use your brains...because you have function keys to work everything out for you, what with the sci-fi world we live in ...of course I love it the way it is now...but what about the future...this is what has been haunting me since then. It is that I like it the way it is now...I dont wish to ever change it but at the same time I wish we could do more phsyical work and without machines.

Marriage

I don’t know but there are times when I am astonished when I think of Marriage and that too an arranged one. When I say this, please don’t mistake me for being someone who is all for love marriage because that; I am not either, but arranged marriage is something that makes me think time and again.
I mean two completely strange people to share their life together and what’s more that some one who was a complete stranger till now becomes your whole and soul just in no time. One day you didn’t even know him and now he is the Only One you have or seems so………….. You always want to live up to his expectations, love doing things for him, care for him and his needs……..
You just accept a complete stranger as your life partner and start liking him. Liking him! :-D
Can one like someone without even knowing him well or does “Marriage” has this basic rule that the person you marry is to be liked by you. But don’t most of us still love our husband as crazily and aren’t we all ready for anything with him…We start sharing his likes and dislikes, his thoughts, his beliefs and in fact start believing in the very essence of marriage. Accepting everything and agreeing to all that’s important to him. Not that it’s easy, but just that it’s such a pleasure to do so….or is it that we believe is compulsory?